In starting to write this post, I have no idea what to say. I have been praying these past few days on what to write because I know God called me to start this blog. The only thing the Spirit has been telling me about is a Facebook post I wrote months ago (and if you know me at all you know that I VERY rarely post anything). This is what the post read...
"I don't post things vert often but I felt led by the Holy Spirit to post this. i don't know who you are or who needs it, but I am praying for whatever struggles you may be going through. Know that the Father loves you and there is nothing He cannot handle.
Come out of sadness
From wherever you've been
Come broken hearted
Let rescue begin
Come find your mercy
Oh sinner come kneel
Earth has no sorrow
That heaven can't heal
Earth has no sorrow
That heaven can't heal"
I had forgotten about that post until I felt led to search back and find it. Keep in mind that this post was written before we found out anything about our baby girl. God works in mysterious ways. I never got a comment saying "thanks Chris, this is just what i needed to hear" or anything like that. Not that I was looking for recognition it just felt like something I needed to post. But now I understand. And I find comfort in knowing that God was watching out for us long before any of us knew what was going to happen. "Earth has no sorrow that heaven can't heal." Those words have never meant more to me than in this moment now. If I am honest with myself, my daughter is very sick. As a new father, I already want my daughter to be healthy and happy and if she does go to be with her Heavenly Father soon, what more could I ask for? No more pain, no struggles, and she gets to be with her Father, in glory, for eternity. Selfishly I would love to spend time on this earth with her, but if I am honest with myself and truly want what's best for my baby girl, that would be for her to be in paradise forever.
God knows what is best for us as her parents, and her as His child. I find myself trying to come up with the answers and try to fix it, but I need to keep telling myself one thing,
sometimes I gotta stop, remember that you're God, and that I'm not.